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Oh...you gave him a chance...

[It's the first thing she replies to, but she can't help it. She can't ignore how that message makes her heart twist and stomach drop. He was dating Otabek too. He was giving someone he barely knew the same chance she so desperately wanted but never asked for. It hurt.

She wanted to yell at him for it, to get angry. But she can't do it. The problem has always been that she's at least half as stubborn as he is at all times, and she doesn't want to just let him go. Not like this...So she doesn't say any more. Not yet. It'll likely come out in the next text anyway.]

I'd rather reassure you in person...but fine.


I do think you can be selfish about some things, but it's human. And I can't...get mad over you being selfish regarding how you feel about someone or something. I wish I had been brave enough to be that selfish sometimes. It doesn't make you vapid--that's something I definitely don't see you as.

I don't feel replaced. But I...I feel left out. Hurt. I can't keep hiding that from you. I shouldn't hide it in the first place but I do. Because I'd rather keep you as a friend than have nothing at all. I didn't ask for a chance but I wanted one...But I can't just lose someone like you because you don't love me the same way I--

[She's ranting now, but there it is, that hurt is coming out and it's not at all how she meant to say it. She doesn't mean to hit send either before she can go back and explain it better. She's almost thankful he didn't want to talk in person. At least this way he can't see the way hot tears are streaming down her cheeks and spilling all over her screen.]